I have been busy today, family coming in.
Being busy is a good thing, leaves me less time in the day, to think about the profound loss of Ward.
However, during my most hectic/manic moments, he is in my thoughts.
While "out sorceing" everything that is possible, I was in The Fancy Pantry, buying desserts for the holiday weekend. Cookies in the shapes of stars, and ice-cream cones, a key lime pie, and a red velvet cake. Freeing up my time, to watch my grand children play, worth every penny!! Worth a LOT of pennies!!! Cakes are expensive, but my time is priceless!!!! While trolling for prepared food, I grabbed some Chicken Salad, tomorrow's lunch is done.
"That will be *(#+>.* amount of money!" Honey!! I pulled out my warm credit card(this was not my first store!!) and she gasped, " What a nice looking young man!", she was looking down at Ward's sweet photo in my wallet. " That is my child, who has died, he is beautiful isn't he." Well, she nearly fell over, and grabbed my arm, and was so precious. It is never easy for someone, to know what to do. Talking about death scares people, especially over cake, pies and cookies!!! She told me she was sorry for my loss, and I told her, thank you for noticing my boy.
All the cakes in the world, could not take me away from that moment, and the reality that Ward was missing so much. Brian and Emily, Adrian and Finn will arrive probably before I finish typing, Hart is in the kitchen, eating the cookies, Emma is watching the Braves playing, it will be a busy Memorial weekend.
My heart is full, and my mind asks the "What Ifs" and I shake my head.
I wish you were here with us Ward, and somehow I think you are.
Being busy is a good thing, leaves me less time in the day, to think about the profound loss of Ward.
However, during my most hectic/manic moments, he is in my thoughts.
While "out sorceing" everything that is possible, I was in The Fancy Pantry, buying desserts for the holiday weekend. Cookies in the shapes of stars, and ice-cream cones, a key lime pie, and a red velvet cake. Freeing up my time, to watch my grand children play, worth every penny!! Worth a LOT of pennies!!! Cakes are expensive, but my time is priceless!!!! While trolling for prepared food, I grabbed some Chicken Salad, tomorrow's lunch is done.
"That will be *(#+>.* amount of money!" Honey!! I pulled out my warm credit card(this was not my first store!!) and she gasped, " What a nice looking young man!", she was looking down at Ward's sweet photo in my wallet. " That is my child, who has died, he is beautiful isn't he." Well, she nearly fell over, and grabbed my arm, and was so precious. It is never easy for someone, to know what to do. Talking about death scares people, especially over cake, pies and cookies!!! She told me she was sorry for my loss, and I told her, thank you for noticing my boy.
All the cakes in the world, could not take me away from that moment, and the reality that Ward was missing so much. Brian and Emily, Adrian and Finn will arrive probably before I finish typing, Hart is in the kitchen, eating the cookies, Emma is watching the Braves playing, it will be a busy Memorial weekend.
My heart is full, and my mind asks the "What Ifs" and I shake my head.
I wish you were here with us Ward, and somehow I think you are.
Posts
No comments:
Post a Comment
Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.