Yesterday, while stepping out of the shower, I thought I heard Ward talking. Frozen in my tracks, listening hard. "Is it a robber or Ward"?
You see grief does not care if you are Naked or Clothed!!!! It often makes you second guess your sanity. Lucky for me, my sanity has been LOONNGG Gone!!!! My heart still stopped, for a brief second, then I just smiled. Knowing Ward was near. Talking to the animals, downstairs.
Daily life becomes even more difficult, when grief pays a surprise visit. Sometimes it rests awhile, and then pounces. Yesterday the big "G" decided to stay a spell.
Did I really hear Ward? Why doesn't he just come and sit down and talk to me? Is my mind tricking me?? I only know what I heard, and it was Ward's voice. Period.
My morning was slow moving, all my senses where on alert. I always look for signs.
So driving my 2 miles to work, I only have time to hear one song. Hopefully, its a good one, because it will be trapped in my mind all day. On this morning, John Mayer's song, Say What You Need To Say, came on the radio. I had to smile, another sign!!! You see, Ward and I said everything we needed to say. We always spoke the truth, laid our feelings out on the table!!!spread eagle!!!! The last thing said to me was, "Did you see the sign I left you on the fridge mom"? "Yes!" it said I love mom, on a pink post-it. He said, "I knew you would like it." Those were the last words I heard from my 25 year old son, until this morning!!!!
I'm so grateful, that we still say what we need to say.
" I love you Ward"
You see grief does not care if you are Naked or Clothed!!!! It often makes you second guess your sanity. Lucky for me, my sanity has been LOONNGG Gone!!!! My heart still stopped, for a brief second, then I just smiled. Knowing Ward was near. Talking to the animals, downstairs.
Daily life becomes even more difficult, when grief pays a surprise visit. Sometimes it rests awhile, and then pounces. Yesterday the big "G" decided to stay a spell.
Did I really hear Ward? Why doesn't he just come and sit down and talk to me? Is my mind tricking me?? I only know what I heard, and it was Ward's voice. Period.
My morning was slow moving, all my senses where on alert. I always look for signs.
So driving my 2 miles to work, I only have time to hear one song. Hopefully, its a good one, because it will be trapped in my mind all day. On this morning, John Mayer's song, Say What You Need To Say, came on the radio. I had to smile, another sign!!! You see, Ward and I said everything we needed to say. We always spoke the truth, laid our feelings out on the table!!!spread eagle!!!! The last thing said to me was, "Did you see the sign I left you on the fridge mom"? "Yes!" it said I love mom, on a pink post-it. He said, "I knew you would like it." Those were the last words I heard from my 25 year old son, until this morning!!!!
I'm so grateful, that we still say what we need to say.
" I love you Ward"
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