New Ink

    In this day of computers, I still think we can use the term, New Ink.
    New typed just does not have the same ring to it.
    I use to love a good fountain pen, ink all over your fingers and papers by the end of the day.
    I use this term, to just explain, a new page. A new thought, story, rant that has crossed my mind in March.
    Sitting down to peck at the keys, with no known path, always a treat.

     My horoscope a couple of weeks back- The magic doesn't need you to believe in it. It goes on
regardless, a gift for any taker. This is one of the few times when it's OK to be a taker( there are more than a few times to be a good taker!!Please.) Take as much as you want. There is plenty to go around.

    I find comfort is knowing that life shows us so much magic. Nature is putting on a magic show right now!!I'm on the taking end of that! Soaking up every minute of each ,new, bursting spring flower. Sunshine and Easter, delicious and Jesus Christ Superstar, crank it up. High Holy Days, are lily field spectacular. It is a a joyous time, I hope for all.

   I also find extreme sadness during this holiday. I think it is the promise of the risen Christ and my son is not here on earth any longer. Making sense of a child's death, is an everyday question I have for the Jesus on the Cross.The inescapable loss of irretrievable days I never had, that I will never have ( not my words, but ran into them reading the paper, and the person speaks from my heart.)
   I had a very bad dream about Ward this week, and I woke up, as usual with some questions!!?? I spoke to the universe, " You would think a mom who has lost her child, could at the very least, not have a bad dream about that child, ever!" Still talking to GOD, while I have her attention, " Come on, I have tried to be strong , but if you are the holy one, and healed the blind, let me not have a nightmare about my Ward."
    I was in a religious funk, at this magical time of the year, and I just waited in faith.
    Watching the TV show, Greys Anatomy last night, after a grand late dinner with wonderful friends. I had taped the show, so I tuned in. One of the characters, had lost her faith in humans and the holy one, when this patient told her, he saw her pain. I think you can see and feel peoples pain, well that patient saw hers. He was dying a horrible death, and wanted no morphine, and she wanted a fix!! ( like me!) He told her, who was she to ask so much of God, to fix all of the bad things that had happened in her life. Then he proceeded to tell of all the suffering Jesus and his followers had to go through. ( he may have been a minister, or just a pretty smart man) Anyhow, he said, that dying of a reaction to medicine that usually heals people, was not on his plan for his day. He had done nothing to deserve this pain, and untimely death. Bad things happen in the world, and God sees and hears us.
(I so wish I could remember every word he said, maybe I will google it, or you can too. Last nights episode of Greys.) To make a short story long!! The redheaded doctor, ( cant remember names, have only watched the show for about 11 years!) felt a peace come over her, and she did not need answers right then. I looked around the den, to see if others were getting this big message , and I smiled. I cried a little, " OK, I get it, right now I get it, but it does not mean I will not have questions, tomorrow. This is so hard, but I trust in Easter Morning, so I must have to trust you or any given Thursday also." ps..."Thanks for the sign, via the telly, you are magic."
    I hope Easter weekend finds you happy, healthy and whole.
    Spring turns over a new Month, and maybe your have some new ink to write down a page or two.
    Absorb all the magic coming your way, and if there is none, look again, its there for the taking.
    It is a promise, from an empty tomb.