I am Starved

Happy Thanksgiving Day, even though that was not a happy day for the Native Americans. I don't think there was peace or a piece shared.

We celebrate being thankful, and that should be an everyday motto, but here we are.

Cooking and eating, like we are headed to the electric chair!! The smells of Thanksgiving, are wonderful, so whom ever made up the holiday, I thank some part of you.

I have two things going in the oven, as I type, and that is not a good thing. I have two timers set, and the beloved is asking me about Zoom!!! Multi task like you raised five children, Bonnie. ( Now I'm talking to myself via the keys on the keyboard!) ( Do they have zoom shrinks? if needed??)

Last week, or not I saw something on TV about The Royal Ballet in London, putting on a ballet show. A one night gig, but they did it, and I was starving!!! I tape everything, just in case of these moments, I needed to watch this, thing of beauty, several times over. I called the doctor hubs in, come watch this with me, as I held my hand to my heart. Look at those point shoes, the leotards, the tulle, the fingers, the hand on her back, the legs, OH MY GOD!!!I am starving for the ballet!! The Opera, A concert, A play on Broadway or Atlanta!!!! I need art in many forms, and not for a snippet of time!! I need The Nutcracker, followed by Hamilton (original cast). I watched some of the turkey day parade on the telly this morn and I got HIGH!!! on people lip synching. (Going to go check the stove, hope this is still here when I get back) OK, needs five more minutes!!

When I was beginning to cook Thanksgiving yesterday, the smells in my house were delish, I was starving for warm, comfort, turkey food smells!!

I need to sit in a pew, at church, and hear the organ.( maybe the message also)

I miss friends, family and ordinary life.

BUT as I remind my brother on a daily basis, Adaptation!!

We learn to look at the broader picture, adapt to the year in which is still going. 

Extend your stroke of the paintbrush!!

Be happy and grateful, and give without ceasing.

The sun is shinning, my mother is doing pretty good, all this food is a blessing, and talking to you or this day, is awesome.

Damn, Alexia just told me to take out the pumpkin pudding, DONE!! Now uncover the dressing, and look at the turkey, and four more sides to cook. They are ready, I just have to throw them in!! and our Thanksgiving is small, five adults and one angel child.

I will leave you with one of my brothers everyday language quotes!! While watching football a couple of weeks back, he said, " That is a lot of beef on the hoof!" I fell over, I replied, " Is that your way of saying this guy is kinda large!!!" We are starving for laughter, and love people, change your day, and some other persons day. For that I am Thankful, Another Day. ( Benjie would say, you forgot to say above ground!!) 

Love

B    ( any mistakes are left in on purpose) ( like a puzzle for you to fix on this glorious day) ( You are welcome) ( Think like a Monk)

Pick Your Hard!! quote from my brother!!

  The election is almost over, or just beginning, I may be in purgatory.( thank you Marie S. Anderson)

I think Mr. Biden has won, but Mrs. Clinton had won also, but you didn't see her in the Big House either.

My PTSD election blues, are hard to shake.

 Joe Biden is calm, and older, and seasoned. He will be fine, and he is not Trump!! I admit it, my postman, could have been a write in, if necessary. The republican party has some fixing to do. They stood by this despot, and went along for the bad ferris wheel!!

I hope we, the democratic people who voted, will not disappoint you, the other half. I know you will have a sting of loss, a close loss, and its not fun. We are good people, who want good things for all people.

Some of us are even conservative swinging, and pro life people. ( ok, don't put me in with that group, but I do believe in the what works for you, is not my business!!) ( So I can listen to you, with an open mind and heart.

John Avalon, whom I may think is a hero, said, " Donald Trump would rather ruin, if he cant rule,"

Please don't unleash this hate that was stirred up, please put out your hand to shake.

I am not even sure at this minute, who will be president, I just need them to be The President of All People.

Now on a lighter note, if there is such a thing.

My brother Benjie is here, and he always makes me laugh. We were watching ESPN sports this am, when I thought I saw Jesus at a football stadium. I said, " What the heck, is on TV, a mirage of the lord!"

Benjie, " No, that is touchdown Jesus, they are at Notre Dame!!"

"NOOOOOAh, are you telling me, that they leave this statue up?" Ben, hollered, "Yes!"

"Are you kidding me, Mother Mary of Jesus, I'm so sorry, that they(whoever they are) can put your baby boy up, holding touchdown arms, and not think this is tacky!"

I know people pray for football, but let that be in your heart!! Witness your love, another way, not touchdown Jesus!!! I may have to up my meds, Benjie just told me a passenger on a airplane, threatened to pee on the cabin helper ( what do they call them anymore) Help!!!

I remain filled with love and hope, and realize I control so little, and My Benjie would say, " Pick Your Hard, Bon!"

Abundant Sunshine

 This dark (time change) morning, my beloved said, " The weather is calling for abundant sunshine."

 At 4am the brain cells, are just stretching and I mumbled, " Did it really say that?"

Hubby says, "Yes"

I smiled over my bed head, " That is the best news, I have heard in days!"

Side note, he failed to mention, it was witches titties cold!! 

Its Abundant Sunshine, that is a beautiful thing.

My hair is falling out, I have hives, my mom is in hospital, the election is on the fritz and violent people are oozing out of the seams of  America. I may be a tad stressed, but I have an Abundant Sunshine Day. Wanda Canupp Wunder use to say "Blue Sky Days" when she could go to the beach, to sun and fish.

I miss her special ways.

Mom is OK-ish, weak, breathing issues, walking issues, just stuff we are working on. Covid makes all the places that can help her, a death trap, so its scary. She may have graduated from our care, but we are hoping she can come home soon, to our normal. Mom, if you are reading this, do your exercises for your legs, and be extra sweet to your nurses and doctors. We are always blessed, remember that. We love you, and will talk later.

Mother and I have had 9 months of heavy chatting going on, we crack up everyday!! Laughter heals, she cries a  lot, but I have no tears left. ( after my son Ward died, no more tears are in my body)

I think mom still has work to do on this earth, so get better Mary, your room is waiting.

One thing during October that we discussed at length, is always daddy/Homer/Sonny/Uncle Homer.

I was the first born, and Trudy ( sister) came real soon after. She was very sick, and mom had to really concentrate on her. Well guess who that left me with!! Homer!! At the early age of around 3, he decided to introduce me to horror movies. I new Boris Karloff and Bela Lugosi before I knew the name of our preacher at Anderson. I knew every part of a car, and how to polish a car, before my six birthday!!!

I knew that Cowboys and Indians were a religion in our house, we had shrines.

Walt Disney, was another human, that may have walked on water.

Golf, Football, I could have coached by the age of 10.

History, music, poetry, geography, quotes of the world, I was daddy's sponge. Then came the boys, Benjie and Tommy, and I had discovered boys, so we could part ways, so to say.

He was a born story teller, and artist with no filter, or ability to tolerate stupid.

Lucky for me, mom jumped in for the girlie stuff, taught me all about Thank You Notes, and not showing your britches!! They were two very different people, that worked well together, and gave us the best. Now I have had some, one on one time, with Mary, that has been pretty neat.( wish she felt better) 

I have had an abundance of  minutes with both of my parents, and for that I am grateful.

Back to this beautiful day, a random thought I had to share with Bill, and he laughed out loud.

Its dark in the den, and its early, crap news is on, and I say, " You know I really love Bandaids and Big Plastic Nativity Scenes in the yard." " I just felt the need to share this information with this person to whom I have been married to for 40 years!!!  He was laughing, " I learn something new about you every day Bonnie."

Thank you Homer and Mary, I have turned out to be pretty neat. A tad off center, and will always make you proud.