Snappity. Snap, Snap,SNAP-Cardi B

 Waiting for my girl to come bring up the boxes, from the basement. Christmas is coming down.
 I enjoyed each and every bulb and ornament, but they gotta go. I have been festive for long enough now!! My son will take down the boxes tomorrow. I think if the two kids that live closest to us, ever move, Christmas Stops!!
   The baby in the manger brings us hope, and I still ask Mary,"Did you know?" She had to know how hard this was going to be. Do parents ever know? I hope her baby boy got to be a little boy, before he took on the sins of the world! What a burden to carry. Did Joseph really know, or was he just being nice? And all the brothers and sisters? Did they know who their baby brother may be? Its a lot to think about!! I see Mary at the foot of the cross so many years later, asking " Did I know this would happen??" The helicopter parent in me, would have altered the course of history, " No you are not going to the temple, to stir up something!" He was just a baby, I think I will leave the nativity up all year, I need to be reminded of hope. I need to know that my child and brother and sister, know that young man who did not remain on the cross. Loss is hard, you know you have loved with all your cells, when it hurts so much. I need the baby!! He stays out!!
   ( still waiting for my Emma, god bless her bones!) ( maybe I will call Hart also, I miss him!) Packing up Christmas, my emotions are raw.
    Just yesterday, I received a three short page letter from my boss in the Cath Lab. I knew before I opened it, the weight was different then a Christmas card only, I held my breath.
   It was a beyond sweet, memory of our time together. I have written about Dr. Robert Miller, before. He was one of my greatest teachers, about the heart. The science of it and the other heart! I was 21 when I went to work for him. This is a quote from my letter:
          I can truthfully say that my happiest times while practicing were the years you were in the Cath lab. You always seemed to know what I was looking for, and were always ready to try something new.He continued with only stories and people we knew together. We were all so young, doctors, nurses and technicians. I loved every second of every day, I worked for Dr. Miller. Bobby, Bob, we called him Chief. He had an extremely long career in Pediatric Cardiology and even Doctors without Borders. I hope everyone has had a Dr. Miller in their life. He also told me, about another Doctor we worked with, who has died. Dr. R. D. Jackson, and I hated to read those words. I adored him, loved him, learned from him, and reminded him in the lab, he did not have to be an ass! No one should have to work with an ass!! period, Doctor or not!! He was my friend, and I do not like knowing he is not on this earth.
   WHERE is that baby in the manger!! I may have to carry him around the house with me!!
   More people need to write letters, and thank you Chief for letting me know I did a good job, and like me, it was one of your most happiest times.
   Emma, the girl, just arrived, I have to finish, she is huffing about where do you want this and that, she knows!!! I may need holy water and the baby Jesus!!
   Do what is right, in the new year, sometimes it is hard, you know what needs doing. Ask Mary, she knew. Joseph knew, and the baby, well you know the story. 
   Snappity, Snap, Snap, SNAP, thanks Cardi B, for telling us, to start the New Year off right!