When I love, I LOVE!

  February continues on, this month of love.
  I'm sitting here at my kitchen table, sun streaming in the windows, not a sound to be heard, and I am loving this day. The olive green sweater is keeping me toasty and I have loved wearing it all day. My Valentines flowers were spent, so I cut them up and placed the remains in my kitchen windowsill, keeping the love blooming another few days. Love takes effort, and the ability to recognize it all around you. Often we have to train ourselves, especially women, to be worthy receivers of love. Love ourselves first, and spread it around.

Since my Ward died, I have struggled to find the love . I was broken, I still am. In my cracked spirit, I looked harder for love. Searching not only for answers, that will never be found, but in a reason to keep going. I begged for joy and happiness to come to me. Little did I know, I had to discover it was all around me. The smell of a clean house, dog kisses, my kindle! When trying to make an appointment with a doctor, a real person answers the phone!!! can take you to your knees!! Orange infused olive oil is glorious, and I forgot how good, Crunch Berry cereal is!  The sunshine on my face, even in winter, are the hands of God.
Friends are love, and having my parents still with me, love fills my cup.

One of my old boyfriends said, "Bonnie you love with all your heart and a kidney!" To which I said, "Is that a bad thing?" I think I may have been suffocating him, but that is a WHOLE other blog!!! When I love, I love. Sometimes it is easier to love, occasionally it can be difficult, but it is never hopeless. Its a job, a big job, I work hard at it.

This February day, I want to leave you with this quote I found, by one of my friends Gilda Radner. I hope she knew how much I loved her, I believe she did!

  I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next-Gilda

Life is love, wrapped sometimes in tacky ribbon, but it is there for all.

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