Leprosy?

Many days, I'm reminded of "my condition".
Some people avoid eye contact with me. There is a sadness in their eyes, and also relief. They do not want me to see, but I do. Sometimes its palpable.
I want to scream, "It's not contagious"!! Grief is my life. I will never be separated from this grief, it is a huge part of my life. Most importantly, it has not killed me. Life continues. Yes, everyday, I'm haunted by my reality. I think it's all about "the love", and that's what I choose to concentrate on. Love is in communication, I have to share my grief, or it will take me. Swallow me whole, and I'm in no mood to be Jonah to the Whale!!!!!
We learn from each other. How to navigate our lives is never easy, and granted my family has been shocked and broken, but we are united in love.
There are many days, that I may be the person avoiding eye contact, I acknowledge that, grief is very lonely and isolating. Some days I'm angry that death has visited my house, and took my child. I will tell you these things, or tell you I don't feel strong enough to talk today.
Someday, someone like me, will cross your path, look at them.
We don't have leprosy, although I just looked at my arm for oozing nodules!!!!
Love is in the laughter!!!