We Keep Trying To Square The Circle-John Avlon-2020

    People, this has been a year. As Dolly Parton has said, " I like to be Ambulance ready!!" (full make up to bed!!)

    I don't have that much to say, which may be a first. The holidays, are hard and the times are stirring the pot. 

    The election process, and one side is always so angry. I finally feel relief, when another may feel despair.

    People all over the world, are hurting from being sick with a new virus, to being sick from unemployment. Hunger, worry, Covid!! is hard to work your Ho, Ho, Ho around. 

    I have to confess, that I do not mind being house bound. I enjoy my husbands company and since March, my mothers company, she now lives with us. Now I also have to say, mom and I have not lived together in 50 some odd years, so we are learning how each of us are as adults. AND we are both old people. We feel good to know she is safe, and feed and sometimes amused, but it has been a big adjustment for all. The shoes are also on the others feet, I am the one telling her what she should be doing, I often feel like the mom, who says NO!!! Luckily we laugh and learn, and thank god for all our blessings, crazy antics and all!!

We both watched Sunday morning this am, with an interview with Paul McCartney. I had tears in my eyes (which is unusual, I don't cry) and mom said, " He still has IT, Bonnie." I smiled, because we both knew what It she was talking about. This 78 year old Beatle, had my heart at 11, and he still holds it with both hands on the guitar. There are no words, for me ever to explain The Beatles in my life, and probably none in mom's remembering them through my eyes. I wrote Paul a letter once, and told him, I would make him a good wife. I never mailed it, but remember every word. My love flowing onto the piece of lined paper, with childlike innocence, and almost teenager angst.

  Mom wondered, out loud, about his mother's feelings, and if she had a good pregnancy with this angel child. I told her, that was not on my mind AT ALL!! She was thinking about his mother, and my thoughts were, GOD he looks good for an old man, and I love him!!! 

 We are very different people, and we laugh.

    This book I am reading right now, Greenlights, by Matthew McConaughey is delightful. Eccentric, educated, philosophical, insane and just beautiful. In a Dazed and Confused way of Matthew. Alright, Alright, Alright. He has found out my living that, Travel and Humanity are his greatest educators.

During this past year, I have missed travel, and I am forever thankful for what travel has taught me.

All people should leave their comfort zone and travel, near and far. You do not know human beings until you see how people live, all over the world. It is a must do. So when we can travel again, by plane, train, boat or bus, Go somewhere new and soak up other cultures, food, and history. Also during all this isolation, even moderate homebound, Educators, and my belief in humanity have taught me soooooo much. Doctors, teachers, parents, friends, musicians, preachers, homeless people, artists, family, neighbors. This semi down time, not thinking about fear and horror, I have loved remembering all who have helped me be the best person, with room to grow.

  So I hope as this year ends, we do not look back with regret, but with lessons, and love and kindness to a year that taught us many things.

  The baby in the manger, is ours, we are his, all people are connected and family, and somehow maybe near to knowing Kevin Bacon!!

  Merry Christmas, keep the lights up a little longer and maybe stop trying to square the circle.

 

I Was Snow White, but....I Drifted...

The title of my blog on this December day is from, the anointed, Mae West. However I think I heard it repeated on a you tube talk by Charlie Mackesy.

This past week, I have listened and read everything I can locate about this man.

One of my dear friends, sent me his book, for the winter season of Covid. I hope you all have a copy, The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse. He, Mr. Charlie, is...….magic? Gifted, flawed, darling, wise, a character in a Dickens movie, a writer, an artist, kind, crass, a delight, he invites you in.

He was interviewed on The Sunday Morning program, last week, I think, or a couple of weeks ago, not a big deal when!! I fell in love with every hair on his head, every word that came out of his mouth, and his heart. In a matter of seconds, I needed to know more. Then during the week, one of buddies, said " Oh Bonnie needs to read this book!" and in my mail it was. I had ordered two for gifts, so maybe you will be on the receiving end also. Every human needs Charlie Mackesy. Go to You Tube, he has several little talks about himself and his lack of religion, only to find Jesus, latter in his life. He tells a tall tale about many things, his description of the Nativity, in real words, life changing. Did you know we were all invited to the nativity!!?? Well, we were, with the lowly shepherds, invited to his birth. We are so loved, who doesn't love to be loved?? We received the invitation to the birth of the baby, animal smells and all. Mary knew, she knew, we all wanted to be there.

Charlie, the boy, mole, fox, and horse, we are invited to sit with them. Hear their words, and pass it on.

I oscillate between depression and joy, on a daily basis. It is a tight rope, that I know others may be on, also.

My grandchildren, give me the most unbridled joy, in the simple act of being themselves.

I had a silly photo of Finn this week, wearing my Florida face gear I sent him, because his Uma, that's me, wants her babies to go to SEC schools!! Adrian called for Grandpa to help him with hard Science, knowing his Uma, will only do Literature, Art history, History, and Music!!!! I reminded this child, that he has the most beautiful hair and eyes, I have ever seen. Love my Boson Babies, and then there is Wyatt, love everything he does!! Good, Bad, wild, calm, I want to bottle up his energy, and remind him that he is perfect. I love all my children, but these grandchildren are straight up, wonderful!! Do they misbehave, heck yes, who doesn't, but they too were invited to the nativity!! They are loved, and pinched and patted, and rubbed, kissed and fill me with Joy.

Mr. Charlie, needs to write a book about them, or maybe just read my words.

Take a moment to watch things around you, pay attention, to good and bad. Be Rad!! ( thank you Maria)

Dance and sing to your hearts content, and fall out, if you need too.

Love wins, yesterday, tomorrow, and right this minute.

PSSSSSS....Do not read Lenny Kravitz book, not all who sing and look gorg, can write. God Bless him.

love,

b